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Pregnancy Round 2

I have been all sorts of distracted and MIA from life lately. Partially because I have a two-year old, who is constantly on the go. Partially because I’m back to working full time. And partially because I’m (almost) 15 weeks pregnant. Oh, and I’m pretty sure I’ve been neglecting my husband as well. Thank goodness he’s a good sport. I’m dying. Ok. Maybe not actually dying. But it kinda feels like it. This pregnancy is so very different than mine with Hayden, I do not remember being this sick and tired, so very, very tired… Maybe because I’m chasing around a two-year old this time? And I feel like we are all constantly fighting off something. It’s so hard to figure out what is making me feel like a zombie, the baby or if I’m actually coming down with something. I’m having a difficult time cooking anything. The thought of smelling eggs is making me gag, like right now. But all I seem to want is eggs, #thestruggle. I hope Hayden doesn’t mind getting cereal for breakfast for the next couple weeks.

We have had two doctors appointments so far. We changed drs this time around because I constantly felt rushed with Hayden and so disconnected. Well, I absolutely love my new doctor and am so glad we changed! Our first appointment was almost 2 hours, and not two hours of waiting. We were in consultations, meeting with the whole staff and telling our entire medical history’s. Oh, and we got to hear the baby’s heart beat, I don’t think that will ever stop amazing me! Our last appointment was terrifying. We saw the NP (which I will never, ever do again) she was awesome, until it came time to listen to the heart beat. Sean said it took about 5 minutes but I swear it felt a whole lot longer than that. I honestly can’t even remember everything that happened – only bits and pieces. I was crying. All I kept hearing was “that’s YOUR heart beat”…. “we may need to get an ultrasound” …. “you need to breathe”. And finally, Sean said the doctor said, “there, that’s your baby’s” but apparently I was on a different planet. Because I heard none of that. And just like that the NP said “that was scary, huh mom?” and left my room. I had to clarify with Sean if they actually heard the heart beat, which he said yes. That still didn’t make me feel any better. I feel like she just rushed out of the room as quickly as she could. I didn’t even have time to calm down to hear the heart beat and know that the baby was okay. We did some office paperwork and our blood work and Sean and the office manager scheduled me for an ultrasound to calm me down a little. It worked. Turns out our little one was moving around so much! Which is likely why the NP was having such a hard time finding the heart beat.

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After that I felt like I could breathe a little easier. I mean, come on, look at that picture! I lost a couple lbs, probably due to all the puking this little one is causing me. And I have no bump to show. Which isn’t exactly surprising – I didn’t start showing until well passed my half-way point with Hayden. But I will say I’m a little disappointed, I was hoping to show a little sooner with this one. Everyone thought it was so great, me not showing for a while… But I promise it wasn’t all that wonderful. I feel like my body would like it a whole lot more if the expanding process was gradual and not all at once LOL! We will see!

Today we are 14weeks 4days

– lost 3lbs from last drs visit
– still in all regular clothes
– cravings?
Sushi (OF COURSE!)
Chocolate Milk
Eggs (which makes me nauseous every time I think about them, which is all the time)
– feeling? Nauseous and Sleepy. (All.The.Time) and so, so thankful!





Sean, Hayden and I are so excited to announce…

We are due with Baby #2 

ETA: November 2015! 


I can’t even tell you how many times we’ve been asked “so when’s number 2 coming?!” Actually. We started getting that question what seemed like a couple months after Hayden was born. (Alright maybe she was closer to one 😉 ). I got so fed up with people asking that I just responded with “never, never-ever”. Truth? I really had no idea. I mean I felt like I JUST had Hayden and you’re asking me if I want another one now? No thanks. Well, now that Hayden is TWO (and she will be almost 3 when the baby comes). We had been planning for baby number 2 for months. Let me just tell you… with Hayden, I was fully prepared for it to take a few months and was a little shocked when it only took one. This time? it took a few longer than my liking… I think someone upstairs was telling me to settle down lol (or the big man was reminding me I didn’t want a summer baby) I’m not the most patient person… But I’m working on it!

I. Am. So. Excited!! I’m feeling a little more prepared in the sense of I know what’s to come. But also a little terrified of the unknown. I mean I’m sure going from 1 child to 2 is no walk in the park! Our girl, She’s a handful! The thought of dealing with pregnancy insomnia, nausea, or having a basketball stuck under my shirt all while chasing this little firecracker makes me cringe. Literally. But were getting through it! I have no doubt that we will adjust accordingly with each new stage. Our hearts have already grown even bigger for this little one and let’s be real, Hayden will be the best big sister!

We both have our thoughts on what this little babe is.. but we will keep them to ourselves for a while 😉

We took our first test on March 7th.

One ever so faint plus sign!! I dropped everything and went to the store to buy a different kind of test. And prenatal vitamins – you know, just in case 😉 I went in the bathroom peed on my second stick and then left it in there. I told Sean to go check! He came out saying “are you sure these are more accurate?”. Thinking it said ‘not pregnant’ I was totally bummed. But only for a half a second.


BAM! Hello there Baby#2! I’m feeling like I may just enjoy this pregnancy a whole lot more than mine with Hayden. I mean, it’s pretty wonderful what our bodies can do!! And plus, if this is our last baby, our last pregnancy, I really want to soak it up!! I’m feeling a lot more nauseous this time around but I’m sure a lot of that has to do with the fact that we have a 2 year old with unlimited amounts of energy and I have limited amounts of coffee. We had our first doctors appointment last week and were lucky enough to hear the heart beat at just shy of 9 weeks!

Hayden made her shirt pictured above and that’s how we told our families. It was so much fun watching them try to figure out if we were telling the truth or not!

xo, E

{C a l i f o r n i a}

I’ve been absent from sharing lately because well, life happens. Truth be told, I’ve been in a funk. Someone (ahem, me) has been having a pitty party. And you’re welcome, I didn’t invite anyone else to it. But now, I think I’m seeing more clearly. You see.. The HubbaHubba and I have been doing some serious life planning. Grown up decisions, ugh. And if you know me at all, you know that change, although necessary, I am not a fan! So when the question of moving arose I found myself gasping a little. Our plan has never been Arizona. So, where to? Well, we’ve sat on it for a little while now and it’s happening. Officially. My work notice is in. Our landlord notice is in and we’ve been singing “I’m going, going, back, back to CALI, CALI!” California here we come!!!

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life choices..

I was confronted today by one of my clients when she saw my wedding ring. “You’re married?! I didn’t think you were old enough to be married!” Which I responded with. “Yes, I have a one year old, as well.” She then proceeded to lecture me on how I was in my 20’s and my 20’s needed to be about me… going out, drinking, and “having fun”. That now, I’m “tied down”, with a baby and have no time to “grow into my own skin.” and that she “feels for me”. These are her actual words.. At first I just sat there… What do you say to that? I’m at work.. and she’s a client, so “mind your own business” just doesn’t seem appropriate… And this isn’t the first time I’ve heard anything like this.. So let me just clear my own air here…

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