Where did the last four months go?
We celebrated Christmas at our house with our girls and it was perfect! No rushing, little chaos, cinnamon rolls. It was good!
It was the next day that we found ourselves in the emergency room with two sick babies. Hayden was hospitalized for 3 days with pneumonia and it was awful. While Hayden was in the hospital – I got my initial order of LuLaRoe! Hundreds of glorious items….. sitting… waiting to be opened. Finally we got home! Hayden getting stronger each day and suddenly Madison getting worse. Pneumonia. Luckily we got her on antibiotics soon enough to avoid the hospital again. I started my LuLaRoe Business and was having a blast!
A week or two and we were all healthy again and we got word on January 20 that we were LICENSED!!! We were so excited. And nervous. But mostly excited. We needed car seats. And beds. Yay for procrastinating!!
The hubs and I had talked about foster care for a while as something we would like to do, eventually. At first it was ‘when we’re finished having kids’ which led into ‘let’s just check it out’. We set up a time for orientation, went and we were both shocked by the information we received. I was on board from day one – I think Sean hopped on somewhere around the time where we hear 19,000 kiddos in care in Arizona. Holy.
There is so much I would like to say and share but really I’m having a hard time finding the time to sit down and write – and we don’t even have a placement yet. Maybe I’ll share some short videos about our journey. We will see. For now we are looking at November/December that we will be welcoming a kiddo/s into our home. If all goes well. We have finished paperwork, classes, state inspection and have one more visit with our LW (licensing worker) for our home study. From there we are really just waiting for our LW to write up the home study and for that to be approved.
We get a lot of questions and a lot that I really don’t have the answer to because we don’t have a placement yet. I hope to write (or make some videos) answering all the questions I can. Thank you friends for all the support! xoxo.Elizabeth
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When we moved rooms around we kind of just shoved the toys in the room because, well, #newbornlife. Hayden rarely ever went into the playroom – there was just too much going on in there. So organizing it has been on my to-do list for a while. Originally we had the girls in two separate rooms. Shortly after Madison was born we moved the nursery stuff into Hayden’s room and made Madison’s room the playroom. Honestly, we would’ve done this originally had we known (for sure) we were having another girl. Remember when we tried holding out til the birth to find out what we were having? We totally almost made it lol
I thought I’d write a little bit about this girl – before I met her. I shared a little bit on Insta and FB about my fears prior to Madison’s birth. I got so many great comments on both posts plus text’s telling me how encouraging it was. It got me thinking. Honesty. Guys, we need more honesty in this world. It’s not always rainbows and butterflies. Sometimes days are tough. Being a mom is hard – let’s lift each other up, always!
When we decided on baby #2 we were so excited! We couldn’t wait to get pregnant and have a new little babe to love on. As soon as we found out we were expecting Madison – it was hard. I mean hard. I was exhausted all the time. I was sick all day. I felt physically awful, which caused me to be in the worst mood for what felt like all the time. Which then caused me to feel like the worst wife and mother on the planet. And this caused me to really question if we made the right choice on #2. Everyday was hard – was this a glimpse of what this child was going to be like? Every doctors appointment, I felt like something went wrong. Which included once not being able to find the heart beat.
I never felt like myself. I was sad and uncomfortable and scared. I was scared I wouldn’t love her like I did her sister. I was scared of how Hayden would react to sharing her parents. Would she resent me? Would I resent the baby? Looking back it all seems ridiculous now. But then, then it was real and it was terrifying.
Sean made a comment when we got home from the hospital… something along the lines of “as soon as she was here, it’s like I looked at you and thought ‘oh, there’s my wife'”. And that’s how it felt. As soon as she arrived suddenly I felt like myself again. And Madison? I was head over heels instantly. This little girl continues to amaze me daily. She’s everything we never knew we were missing.
And the heart expands a little more.
Adoption and Foster care has been on my heart for as long as I can remember. Really, since I was a little girl. I have a love and desire to help those in need; people, children, animals. Truthfully, the further we go down this road the scarier it gets. I cannot even tell you how many blogs I’ve read, of those walking this path. How many Instagram(which surprisingly has such a huge community of families in this) accounts I’ve followed (or stalked LOL)how many websites I’ve dug through and dissected every single word.
This process, getting started is lengthy and scary. And we’re getting ready to test out these waters.. There is so much information and so man horror stories. I’m both excited and terrified to see where this goes.
Y’all I started this entry in June, over 200 days ago. So obviously we’re still “test the water” so to speak. But! Today, today we had orientation for foster care. I’ve been waiting for this day for over a month – when we finally decided to set a date to check it out. It was eye opening for sure. There were a lot of things that I knew but much more that I did not. For instance, approximately 18,000 children are “in care” in the state of Arizona. 18,000. FORTY percent – that’s 40% – of that 18,000 are in shelters, group homes or sleeping in the DES offices because there are no foster homes available to take them. That is crazy to me. Babies. Babies sleeping in shelters or offices because there is literally no where for them to go. That breaks my heart and calls me into action.
Another mind blowing fact… The ladies spent a good amount of time talking about adoption and how it’s meant to be permenant.. as in.. you adopt a child and should consider that child a part of your family p-e-r-m-a-n-e-n-t-l-y. Because apparently it is common enough practice to “return” children that you have adopted back to the state if you decide after that it isn’t working out. (insert shocked face here)
We are in the process of choosing our agency and once that is done we will begin training, background check, home study etc. Which could all take anywhere from 3-9months. 2016 is going to be huge. Prayers are welcome.
Here we go.
In this new season of life that we are shifting into I feel myself pulled more to really focus on being a wife and a mother. When Hayden was first born I was in such a different season than I am now that Mad is here… maybe that is because I didn’t truly understand how quickly time flies by when you have kids. When I first started feeling this need focus more on my crew, to really be present for them, I knew I needed to find a way to continue to work. I’m a worker y’all and the thought of all the financial responsibility being on my husband makes me itchy. I’m super independent/i-pay-my-own-dang-bills in that aspect HA!
Recently, my job has allowed me to almost exclusively work from home which is such a blessing. Part of me focusing on our crew is also focusing on myself and little things (besides my crazy little fam) that fill me up! I love crafting, so my recent Etsy shop adventure just made so much sense! It’s something I love doing (crafting), while working from home and helping financially. I also want to spend more time with my friends and focusing on those relationships, focus more on my blog, I love sharing my thoughts and documenting our days while staying connected with family and friends and connecting with new people through social media.
Think good thoughts for me and our crew as we go into this new season. And while I get accustomed to working with little people – although Hayden will still be in preschool part-time. We’ve also got some pretty exciting things coming up… One thing in particular that has always been a passion and calling for me! I can’t wait to talk more about that soon!
Writing this out has me realizing that I have quite a bit going on right now… I tend to do that lol! I want to be present for my family, all while working on the things I love and am passionate about. Can’t I have it all? Here’s to snuggling babies, playing ponies with the 3 year old, talking about dogs to everyone, stringing all the boards, cookin all the food, connecting with all the friends and reading all the mommy blogs <3
but right now? baby snuggles.
I’ve been meaning to get an Etsy shop (RaisingUpRyans) started here for a while, really.. it’s been on my list of things to do! But, #newbornlife. I’ve been working on a ton of boards this holiday season! And I have so many more designed that I just need to nail out. I had some time yesterday with Sean home so I was able to get a couple done.
The first ones I did were super simple but SO DANG CUTE! I had some extra pieces of wood left over from a larger board that I had Sean cut up for me so I could make these little gems <3 They are now up in the shop for $5 (and free shipping!)
The next one I wanted to try and tackle was this “Madison” board. I have been practicing different freehand fonts and finally found one I really really like but you never know how things are going to transfer from your original design to string. There is definitely some tweaking I’ll be making. But I really love this.
Check back in the shop for new designs! And I’ll do my best to post them here on the blog as well. Looking forward to 2016 and watching this little lady grow <3
It all started because the grocery store ran out of Apple Pie the day before thanksgiving. Obviously, no thanksgiving dinner is complete without Apple pie, so I decided to give it a whirl. This is the second one I made. The first one I clearly was not paying attention (I have a newborn and almost 3 year old y’all) and I read the recipe that called for lemon zest and put lemon extract instead. A whole tablespoon of it. Sean liked it but he’s weird. My tastebuds were throughly confused.. Is this Apple? Is this lemon? ANYWAYS. I ran to the store grabbed another bag of apples and started over. Holy moley this is good! And easy!
Pillsbury pie crust
8 cups peeled, cored, thinly sliced apples (about 6 apples)
1/2 cup sugar
1/4 cup flour
1/4 tsp cinnamon
Small splash of lemon extract (optional)
1/2 cup softened butter
1 cup flour
2/3 cup brown sugar
1 tablespoons sugar
- Preheat oven to 400 degrees
- Line pie tin with crust. Pinch edges to create small tents.
- Take 3 cups of cold water in large bowl, dissolve 1/2 teaspoon of salt in water, set aside.
- Peel, core and slice apples into thin pieces. (I used my apple cutter and then cute those pieces into 3-4 more thin slices.)
- Toss apples in salt water, let sit for 3-5mins. Rinse & drain water. (I did the apple “bath” in 3 sections as I sliced)
- Combine filling ingredients. Toss apples in mixture until fully coated.
- Pour apples into pie tin, focusing Apple to center of tin.
- Combine softened butter, flour and brown sugar. Mix together with a fork to create your crumble topping. Spread evenly on top of apples. Sprinkle 1 tablespoon sugar on top.
- Bake 45-55 mins (until nice and golden brown)